I should be studying

But instead, I'm worrying. I don't have a lot of people that are close to me, so when I fuck up and potentially alienate them, it's a big deal to me. Might've just done that to Anthony yesterday. I think he could be ignoring me at the moment, but I'm not going to definitively make that claim, because he might just be busy or something. It would be douchey of me to automatically assume the worst of people, so I won't. But I'm still worried...

In an attempt to make this post less emotional and less about my weaknesses, I'll focus on the mundane. Last night (as you may have surmised from my last post, I wasn't doin' so hot) I hung out with Justin. He bought me something nice and caffeinated to calm me down (caffeine is my drug of choice--I don't know why I like it) and we played video games until five o'clock in the morning. He played WoW on my computer and I started Mass Effect 2 on his X-Box. I only played the beginning of the first Mass Effect at Erik and Will's, so I had him bring me up to speed on the story, but since it's an RPG (it should technically be "a RPG" but that doesn't sound pretty) it had a codex with lots of backstory and setting info. It was pretty fun.

I went to the dentist today, and while my teeth themselves haven't gotten any worse, some of my old dental work has. I have some old metal fillings from about nine years ago that need some maintenance, so apparently I have to have them removed and then have a crown put on. Which royally sucks. It's painful, it's expensive, and it's time consuming. I hate dentists. All of them. Yes, I'm being irrational about it, and I know that dentists are people too, and that they do good--but I still hate them. And because of my cleaning my teeth have been hurting all day. Damn dental hygienists.

I have that history final tomorrow. Haven't studied at all today, but as soon as I finish this blog (as well as paranoid-edly check Facebook to see if Anthony has answered me yet) I'll start working on it. I'll probably write three half-page essays and answer all the short answer questions, and read over them once or twice. That worked out for me for the mid-term, and I expect it will carry me through the final. I think we might get our papers back tomorrow, too. I think mine sucked. I turned in a good rough draft, but I lost my folder with all my old work in it, including the rough draft, so I had to revise without the use of teacher's comments--which almost guarantees that the quality of the paper took a nose-dive.

Which reminds me, I think I have some overdue library books. I hope they don't charge me too much. I spent so much time with Anthony that I didn't have the chance to return home and get the books packed into my car. Yep, they're overdue. I just checked. Balls. Oh, well. No use crying over spilled coffee.

I also spent a lot of time reading the Q&A one of the Dresden Files RPG playtesters, Rick Neal had on his blog over a couple weeks. A lot of nice distracting interesting things to make me a little less miserable for today. I haven't had the opportunity to continue reading about the FATE system and SotC (Spirit of the Century, the most recent FATE powered game) but reading through Rick's blog has given me a lot of information about both, and how the DFRPG is similar and different.

I guess that's all I have to say. Wish me luck, for more things than one. (Save your more powerful wishes for mending ties with Anthony, if you would--I can handle the History Final myself.)